Discovery for me!

So, this picture is of the detail on the side of my new glasses. What I didn't realize when I took this picture yesterday, is that I set it on my leg, and I didn't even think about it. A year ago when I started this journey publicly, I NEVER WOULD HAVE DONE THAT!!! I would never dream of taking a picture of my leg up close like that.

The other thing about this picture, is that I like that I took it. It lets me see the line of my leg up close, and I am starting to like how it looks! It means that I will be keeping my curves as I shrink, and I always secretly was worried about that. I don't want to me a twig. I am a beautiful woman with my curves in the right places! I just want them all a little smaller, so that I am healthier!

All in all, I feel good about this, and I am happy with what I am doing to make it happen!

I FEEL FABULOUS!!!

Ok, I have to tell you all that I am feeling fabulous these days! Taking this job at Curves has been an eye opening experience for me! It has helped me discover what I want in life. Recently, I have had to find another place for my adorable kittens to stay. Despite the fact that I miss them so much, I really feel good about the things going on in my life. My husband feels better about his life, because he is losing weight as well as me! I truly feel that this is going to be a good thing for me in my life.

I am going to do my weigh and measure at Curves tomorrow, so wish me luck! I will post the results tomorrow evening!

New Things in Life!

So, I need to explain why I haven't been posting much lately. I have been swamped working 2 jobs! You will never guess where my 2nd job is...I WORK AT CURVES!! I work the early morning shift at the Curves that I attend now! I absolutely adore it! It makes me so happy! The ladies are all amazing, and I can't believe I didn't think about a job like this sooner!
What taking this job has helped me realize is that I'm really not as happy doing hair as I thought I was. I still like doing hair, don't get me wrong here. I love meeting new people every day and being able to help them feel beautiful/handsome. But I have come to realize that it is not my true calling in life. I have decided I am going to go back to school to become a dietician. Even if it's only to learn to be the most healthy I can be for me, it will be wonderful, and make me super happy! :) I just feel so much warmth and peace when I talk about going back to school. I have requested information from several local schools on their programs, and trying to see who can do it online, and for the cheapest price! I also need to start looking into financial aid. ;)
EEEKK! I'm so excited!

Measurements!

So, I realized I haven't taken measurements in a long time, so I am going to start fresh tonight by giving my current measurements!
Bust: 45.40"
Waist: 39.25"
Abs: 43.75"
Hips: 50.90"
Thigh: 30.75"
Arm: 16"
Weight: 212 lbs

I can tell you that the last record that Curves had, I was 3 lbs less, but 6 inches bigger, so I am really happy with my current measurements! I know it is my combination of Zumba, Curves, and Weight Watchers. I feel amazing, and I look forward to continuing to do so! :)

Zumba with Jill

Ok, this is my adorable Zumba instructor Jill Bell! She is amazing! Her routines are a blast, and never exactly the same, so she keeps challenging you. But at the same time, it's not too difficult to keep up with her. She keeps things simple, challenging, and fun, all at the same time! Does that make sense even? It does to me, and hopefully it does for you.

I have been attending her classes that are connected with Curves for Women, and I found out recently that she will be doing hour long classes that are just Zumba! Here is her Zumba Schedule starting February 15!

Mon: 7:30-8:30

Tues: 7:30-8:30

Thurs: 7:30-8:30

Fri: 6-7

Sat: TBA

These classes are located at the Springville Senior Center. The address there is 65 East 200 South in Springville, right next to the moose just off of main street. ( If you are driving there, yes, you will in fact see a moose statue in the middle of the road!) You can get a monthly pass for $20 a month, and that is an unlimited pass, so you can attend as many of her classes as you like. The other payment options are a 10 visit punch card (NO EXPIRATION!) for $25 or a $5 drop by.

If you are a member of the Provo East Bay Curves (South Provo) her schedule there is as follows! (You members know the pricing!)

Mon: 6-6:30

Wed: 6-6:30

Thurs: 6-6:30

Sat: 8:30-9

I am a true believer in Jill's workouts, and have attributed a lot of my weight loss this month to her and her fun routines! If you ever want to go, let me know! I will be there as long as I am not closing at work that night! ;)

Thanks for being amazing Jill! Hopefully by December, we will be taking another picture for a transformation comparison! Love ya Jill!

Weight Watchers Week 4

Ok, so no weight loss this week, but I feel ok about that. I have my "Monthly Visitor" which causes me to bloat and retain water, so the fact that I weighed in and didn't gain is a good sign if you ask me! Next week should hopefully be a decent number! I have lots of Zumba to do in the mean time!

I am really feeling great about the progress I am making! My clothes feel good, and I'm feeling better and better about my body! I am looking forward to the changes ahead!

"THE FAT GIRL"

So, lately I have been re-evaluating why I want to loose weight. There are several reasons that I have mentioned before, but I think the biggest reason lately for me is this....
I WANT TO PROVE EVERYONE WRONG!
When you feel you have been pegged as "The Fat Girl" in your group of friends the majority of your life, you have something to prove to people. My first recollection of being called fat is one of my first memories. I was 3, and this boy had no idea what he was saying, but it effected me so much. After that, I think I just thought that is who I thought I would always be, "The Fat Girl." I know that I am much more than that.
By the age of 12, I was begging my parents to let me go see a personal trainer. My parents did what I asked, and I think that added fuel to my fire. I don't ever blame my parents for letting me go. While I was going to the personal trainer, rather than losing weight, I was gaining it. I went down a size, but I weighed almost 10 lbs more. I didn't understand that I was gaining muscle and loosing the fat, and being really healthy. My parents couldn't afford to have me go to the personal trainer anymore, and I let the weight creep on through my jr high years.
There are demons in my past that only a few people know about, but I know that I have been obsessed with being skinnier than I am for many years now. At least 10, and I'm not that old yet.
I always ran around with the kind of girls that you would see on the cover of a magazine, even though I was never that girl. I thought maybe that if I hung around with them long enough, I would end up looking like them. Well, that didn't happen.
The thing that did happen, is I found 2 ways to exercise that made me happy. Ballroom Dancing and Colorguard. ( That's the girls that run around on the football fied with the marching band, dancing, twirling flags, tossing rifles, etc. for those who aren't familiar with that.) I felt really healthy while doing that, even though I didn't look like my friends. Dancing made me feel beautiful and sexy, while Colorguard made me feel powerful and strong. I was a very confident girl on the outside during high school. On the inside, I was a mess. I really wanted to have a special someone, and I was just everyone's friend. Certain girls were threatened by me, because I hung around with so many of the guys, but I was never dating any of them. In fact, I never went on more than 2 or 3 dates with any guy from my high school. We hung out a lot, and I spent a lot of time with them, I was just never the girlfriend type for them.
I had my first boyfriend towards the end of my senior year, and he cheated on me with another girl from my high school. I was devastated, because she was thinner than me, and I thought he felt I was fat, and he didn't want me. After that, dating became interesting. There were definitely guys that I dated, but it wasn't until I dated a guy that had adored me from a distance that I learned how beautiful a man could think I am. I will always be grateful to this guy for teaching me that. He knows who he is, so I won't mention his name. There was a misunderstanding in our relationship, so we didn't end up together, but I will always be grateful for the relationship we did have. After him, I dated a lot of guys that were wrong for me, and I wasn't happy. After a break up the summer before I met my hubby, I decided I needed to become happy with where I was at in my life, so I stopped dating. I spent tons of time with my good friend Erik, and figured out what made me happy.
Then by chance, when I was at my peak weight, I met my husband. He was so great to me. I felt truly special, and that I was truly loved. I asked him once if my weight bothered him when we were dating, (I know, so stupid!) and he gave me such a beautiful answer. "Babe, I love you, and I don't see anything other than you. I love you the way that you are. I have honestly never noticed your weight, so no, it doesn't bother me." I knew in that moment that I had a keeper. I am really lucky to have him. He is the only person who can pull me out of my dark days besides my dad. My dark days are much farther and fewer between now, but I still have them. He is so good to me, and I don't know what I would do if I didn't have him. He is truly amazing, and truly perfect for me.
So, to sum up this long post, I want to prove everyone wrong, but most of all, I WANT TO PROVE TO MYSELF THAT I AM NOT "THE FAT GIRL"!!!!!