So, yesterday for the first time in a really long time, I felt pretty. I got ready for the day, and felt confident all day long. It was very eye opening of how I have been thinking of myself. I truly feel good in my own skin, and that's a first in at least the last 2 years I have had this blog. I've had moments, but not a whole day. This morning I'm still feeling pretty good, but not quite as good as yesterday.
We keep hearing in our lives that we are our own worst critic. I've never known those words to be true until this moment. I had posted how I felt on my facebook yesterday, and I had a couple of really sweet friends point out that they always thought I was gorgeous. I think the last time I felt truly gorgeous before yesterday was on my honeymoon 4 years ago. My husband would always tell me how beautiful and gorgeous he thought I was, but it was hard for me to personally believe, because I was so afraid that he was only saying that to me because he loved me, and that he knew it would make me feel good, rather than being the truth. This is no fault on him at all. This is all me. Because of the way I reacted, he didn't call me those things as often anymore, and I started slipping into a depression without realizing, and started eating myself into a fat woman, I guess to protect myself from getting hurt. I felt I could always blame it on being fat.
I have realized now that I can't hide behind my weight forever. I need to let my beautiful self touch more and more people, and the more confident I feel, the more my beauty starts to come out. I need to just embrace the Beautiful Minnie inside, and let her shine!
Here's to a new year, and a new Minnie!
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