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So, before I start on today's subject, I should give a little bit of an update. I worked out at total of 3 times this week, which is better than what I have been doing the last little while. But alas, I am seeing no progress. I figured it was due to lack of exercise, and the fact that I haven't really been keeping track of what I had been eating, and I always loose when I do track it.

So, that brings me to today's subject! Sparkpeople is an amazing FREE community of people all over the world who are all trying to beat the bulge. I've made some very dear friends via sparkpeople. It tracks your calories that you eat, and the calories that you burn. If you are not following anything specific, then they can create a plan for you. Its a wonderful tool, and I'm glad to be back and using it again.

Zone Out

Ok, so today I was kinda in a daze all day. I zoned out, and time didn't really seem to matter all that much. It was really different. I made sure that I ate, and I was in a daze until after work. I made it down to Curves today, and my mind has been sharp all day since. I find it interesting that when I got down to my workout that my brian decided it wanted to work properly. That just motivates me to get back into a routine where I am eating good and working out again. I just feel better when I do it that way.

Better Today

Ok, so today was better than yesterday. I've been a lot better about what I was putting into my body, and I felt WAY better. I wasn't able to make it down to Curves today, but I'm going to workout on my Wii Fit tonight. I'm also going to T-Tapp. Those are both fairly low impact, but I need to do something or I'm going to go Crazy!
Monday, I WILL make it down to Curves, because I miss going down there. I always feel so much better after I go down there. Well, I'm going to have a tiny snack. Maybe some pears or something remotely healthy instead of sugary popsicles! :)

Realization

I can't get my wedding ring off of my finger. I was getting ready to take it off to clean it, and I can't get it off. Maybe it's because the weather has been changing a lot here, I don't know, but all of my fingers are bigger now. I'm doing everything in my power to not cry as I type this, but I feel that is a sign that I am getting fat again.
I have to be honest, and the only thing I have really done to have a part of my healthy life, is the 5K walk I did tonight. I haven't been watching what I'm eating, I haven't been going to Curves, I haven't even cared lately.
Tonight was a HUGE eye opener for me. Tomorrow is a new day, and I will make it better than today. I think I'm going to have to take this one day at a time, or I won't be able to conquer it.
I have gained some of the weight back. I can't bring myself to move the ticker yet, because I don't want to move it back. I will see if I can do it tomorrow.
I'm going to start tomorrow by actually having breakfast! That has been my struggle the last couple of weeks.

Burnout

So, lately, I have been burnt out with my life. I was having too many extremes all at once. I was trying to put too much on my plate. I was trying to work all the time, work out all the time, spend all of my time with my hubby, and eat healthy all the time. I was trying to be perfect, and I got burnt out.
So, I took this weekend off of work. I spent today doing things that I have wanted to do for a while. I went and got my hair done, I went to lunch with friends, and I took myself to a movie I have been dying to see. I went and saw Letters to Juliet. It's definitely a gushy warm feelings movie, but that's exactly what I needed today.
Tomorrow I head out of town for the rest of the weekend. I will try to eat pretty good, and to get a walk in.
What I have realized, is that when I try to be perfect, I gain weight. I just need to learn to be happy being me, and add my healthier habits. But I also need to not beat myself up when I make a mistake. This whole journey is about life changes, not burnouts.
I am changing my life for the good.

Walking

So, I haven't been able to make it down to Curves yet this week. I've been doing a lot of walking, so that I am still getting some cardio in. It's been great so far! I walked another 5K Monday night, and then a mile and a half tonight. It's also been good for me to have a walking buddy. My good friend Eva has been my walking buddy. It's great, because she is able to push me to keep my heart rate up, because her legs are a mile long! (Just teasing, but her legs are longer than mine.) I feel healthier every day! This week is going to be crazy, so I may not blog much more the rest of the week. I'm running all over the place for the next few days, so hopefully I will be able to catch up on Sunday.

SHOUT OUT!!!!

So, this is a shout out to my mom! When we went shopping yesterday, she kept having to try on smaller sizes than what she thought! She is really taking care of herself, and that makes me really happy! I loved running back and forth to get my mom smaller clothes! She's been about the same size for a while, and she was feeling pretty good when we were at one of her favorite stores, and even though she had grabbed a smaller size than she bought last, she still had to go down another!
Needless to say, I'm proud of you mom, and I want to be more like you! :)