Craving!!!!

Ok, so I have been following my plan really well considering everything that has been going on with me in the last two weeks with my wedding anniversary and Thanksgiving. Tonight I am craving Little Caesars Italian Cheese Bread. It's so specific I don't even know what to do about it!

A visit to almost 2 years ago

Last night I went back to the beginning of this blog, and remembered how vulnerable I made myself with some of those first posts. I'm really heartbroken that I really haven't made any progress from then! I don't even know what to think about it. I've started sharing this blog again, and I am scared to make myself vulnerable again. I know I need to to be more successful.
After my workout last night, I went home and had a good cry. I can't believe it's taken me almost 2 years to get more serious about this! I'm 9 pounds away from being under 200. I will NEVER spend another year in the 200s! I have to make this happen not only for my health, but for my future family.
Lately, I have been having dreams about my husband and I announcing we are pregnant to our extended family. My dreams take place in spring/summer. That means I have about 6 months to make sure my body is ready for my future family! I have a lot to do between now and then.
I hope I continue to receive the help and support I need!

Weight Loss Competition

So, shortly after my last post, I was invited to participate in a weight loss challenge at a local gym! I accepted, and have been doing the program for the last 2 weeks. As of this morning, I have lost 9 lbs! When I did my official weigh in last Tuesday, I had lost 7.5 inches off my body in the first week. That felt really good! I have to be honest! It doesn't seem the weight loss is as much this week, but I think it was just as many inches, because all of my clothes fit differently. I even have a pair that I can't wear anymore because they are too big!

I hope this continues to work so well for me! Week 2 was definitely harder. The temptation to cheat was much more! :( But that's in the past! This is a new week, and I am more motivated than ever to get under 200 by the new year!I have 10 more lbs to lose to get there! (I had gained some before I started this program!) But I will get there, and that's all that matters!

Set backs and Progress

So, when I first said I was going to lose that much weight by the new year, I really believed I was going to. Then, I got lazy. I'm not going to lie or sugar coat it. I just plum got lazy, and gained 7 lbs in 2 weeks instead of losing it. So, I have really been buckling down and sticking to my plan, and amping up my exercise the last 2 weeks, and I have now lost 1 lb from my starting point! I only have 12 more lbs to go! That's progress, and that's what I am thriving on! I still have a ways to go, but as long as I stick to what I am doing, I should be there by the New Year!

So, how am I going to keep my control this week?

I am going to make sure that I drink TONS of water, make sure that I get exercise in at least 5 days this week, if not 6. I am also not going to go back for seconds at Thanksgiving dinner. I usually eat my weight in mashed potatoes on Thanksgiving, but not this year. I also think I won't be putting gravy on my potatoes, and making sure there are more veggies on my plate than potatoes.

In general, I have decided that I am not going to be eating fried food anymore. The only fried food I was really eating was chicken breasts at fast food places, and french fries. I can live without those. If anything, it will keep me at arms length from fast food, which won't be a bad thing.

Also, I have gotten out of control with my cheese consumption again. I'm going to really cut that back again. Last time I did that I lost 4 lbs in one month, so that will only add to my arsenal of help on this journey.

Wish me luck! I hope I still have readers!

I've set a goal

I am DONE being over 200 lbs! My goal is to weigh under 200 by Jan 1, 2012. 2011 is my last year over 200 lbs! It's only 13 lbs from where I am at now. I can do this! It is totally doable! I am really excited about this goal, and am wanting to get active as often as I can! If anyone is ever out and about, I would love to join them on a walk whenever I can! Let me know!

So today, I was on Pinterest, (My new addiction) and I found a link to a blog that I want to share with you. This gal lost 135 lbs, and she talked about what she misses about that size, and how she is both her skinny self, and her big self. It is so beautifully written, I thought I would share the link! Here it is! Look on her segment What I miss about 135 lbs ago. It's beautiful!

Gaining Control

If I have to gain something, I'm glad it's control! ;)

So, I have lost half of the weight that I had gained back, and I plan to continue to lose it. Things are a little less stressful now. It's not quite there, but it's getting there. I feel like I have a better handle on my life than I did a couple of weeks ago. I am doing everything in my power to be the happy positive Shae that I was for a really long time. I have goals and dreams now. I haven't really had them for a while and I feel like I have a reason to do everything that I am doing again.

Wish me luck!

Struggles

So, things haven't been going so well since my last post. I've had a lot of stressed added to me at work, and I haven't been handling them very well at all. I'm not sleeping as well, and I've put on weight. I'm not ready to admit how much, but I will let you know once I'm back down to what I've lost. It seems to be coming off pretty quickly now, but I still am not ready to admit how much. I am back to watching more closely what I am eating, when I am eating, and why I am eating. When I check with those things, I do much better.

I have been so stressed that I made myself sick. I'm learning the limits of my body and I am trying to stay farther away from them. Things can only go up from here. Everything except my weight, that is! ;)