How did I do through the holidays?

So, the holidays are the hardest time to be losing weight. The average person gains 3-8 lbs over the holiday season. Just before thanksgiving, I weighed 219. I now currently weigh 206! :) I am feeling really good about how I am doing. I am proud of how I have handled the last couple of days. I didn't finish either of my plates on Christmas eve or Christmas day at our family gatherings. I was plenty satisfied, and I even did things to burn it off. Saturday I worked in the morning, and after our family party that night, my hubby and I went up to Temple Square in Salt Lake City and walked around to see the Christmas lights. Then Sunday I got on the treadmill at my mother in laws and burned off some of what I ate! I feel really good about that! The hard part now is that we are going to be headed out of town later this week. Wish me luck!

Unexplained Blessings

So, to continue on my current plan, I was $150 short as of noon today. I found out that my doTERRA check was $50 short, so they will be sending that, and I also found out that my boss is giving us a little extra in our checks for Christmas. At least half of that $150 wad taken care of in a matter of 3 hours! I can squeeze another 75 out of somewhere! This is such a blessing!
I finally feel like I have a plan that is working for me, and I'm loving the personal training I am getting! I'm going to be one tough Minnie when this is over! I'm doing a lot of boxing in my training, and the inches are starting to come off of my arm! I couldn't be happier than I am at this moment!

What now?

So, my hubby still works nights, and with my plan for my program right now, once I'm done with dinner, I can only have water. Do you know how hard that is when you are home alone and lonely? I don't think my husband will understand how much I miss him, and how much I wish I didn't have to work, just so I could see him, and we could be on a similar schedule. It seems the only times we have together are his days off, (mine don't exist other than sundays) Sundays, and when either he or I are sleeping. It's nice that we don't fight, but these nights at home are really hard on me. I can't even tell you how bad I want to run to the store, by every type of cheese in sight, and have a mexican pig out. I am sitting here, crying, typing this, missing my husband. I didn't realize how bad I would let my emotions get to me with him working nights until I went on this program.
Now that I have the knowledge, what do I do now? Knowledge is power, right? Well, going out so I don't have to think about it is usually a bad idea, because that usually involves eating. I don't like to go to the gym late at night unless it is for a group workout because the gym isn't staffed after 7. Exercising at home isn't really working out for me, but sitting in front of the TV isn't either. I'm at a loss for what to do. I want to deep clean my apartment, but the neighbor below us works early in the morning, so she is in bed by 7:30-8 so that she can be up by 3.
So here I sit, in my dirty apartment, (other than clean dishes and laundry folded) crying wondering what to do. Does anyone else ever go through this? Am I weird? I have no idea. I'm going to go watch some Vampire Diaries, and hope that I can fall asleep early so that I don't have to keep thinking about this.

Progressing again

Things are looking up. It seems I am back on track to be to my goal weight by the new year as long as I am disciplined. No more cheating or slips for me, and I have to make sure I stay active! I've officially lost 10 lbs and 18.5 inches since just before Thanksgiving. I feel that is pretty impressive! I still have about 9 lbs to go to reach my goal, but I feel that if I buckle down and stick to my plan, things should go according to plan and be great! Here's to making it through the next 2 weeks!
My official competition ending weigh in is on Thursday, and I really want to blow it out of the water! :D

A little discouraged.

I'm a little discouraged right now. I'm still losing inches, but the pounds haven't been coming off. I'm following the plan how they tell me too, and I'm still worried about reaching my goal. It is still a good 10 lbs to get under that 200 mark. I really don't want to see 2012 start with a 2 anything when it comes to my weight. I'm going to have to amp things up I guess, and get more stringent on what I am eating.
The holidays are proving hard to be as successful as I want. There is so much temptation around. I've been really good about keeping it out of the house, but when you are at Christmas parties it is harder. I wish holidays didn't center around food. It makes things difficult!

Will Power

So, I have to tell you, I was so lost last night due to that craving, I honestly had no idea what to do. I didn't give in to this particular craving, because I wanted to find out what about it I was craving. Was it the cheese? Was it just bread in general? What was it about THOSE PARTICULAR ONES that I was craving. As I sat and thought about it last night, I found out it was their seasoning blend that I was craving! Their particular blend seems to be more salty than the other pizza places, so I figured I was craving the salt more than anything. That's why it wasn't just cheesy bread of any kind. So, I drank some more water thinking I was dehydrated, and I did fine the rest of the night. I even said no to the cookies I bought for my work staff meeting last night.

All in all, I think this was a good experience for me to go through! I learned that I need to know specifically what I am craving about foods I crave, and figure out what I need! :)

Craving!!!!

Ok, so I have been following my plan really well considering everything that has been going on with me in the last two weeks with my wedding anniversary and Thanksgiving. Tonight I am craving Little Caesars Italian Cheese Bread. It's so specific I don't even know what to do about it!

A visit to almost 2 years ago

Last night I went back to the beginning of this blog, and remembered how vulnerable I made myself with some of those first posts. I'm really heartbroken that I really haven't made any progress from then! I don't even know what to think about it. I've started sharing this blog again, and I am scared to make myself vulnerable again. I know I need to to be more successful.
After my workout last night, I went home and had a good cry. I can't believe it's taken me almost 2 years to get more serious about this! I'm 9 pounds away from being under 200. I will NEVER spend another year in the 200s! I have to make this happen not only for my health, but for my future family.
Lately, I have been having dreams about my husband and I announcing we are pregnant to our extended family. My dreams take place in spring/summer. That means I have about 6 months to make sure my body is ready for my future family! I have a lot to do between now and then.
I hope I continue to receive the help and support I need!

Weight Loss Competition

So, shortly after my last post, I was invited to participate in a weight loss challenge at a local gym! I accepted, and have been doing the program for the last 2 weeks. As of this morning, I have lost 9 lbs! When I did my official weigh in last Tuesday, I had lost 7.5 inches off my body in the first week. That felt really good! I have to be honest! It doesn't seem the weight loss is as much this week, but I think it was just as many inches, because all of my clothes fit differently. I even have a pair that I can't wear anymore because they are too big!

I hope this continues to work so well for me! Week 2 was definitely harder. The temptation to cheat was much more! :( But that's in the past! This is a new week, and I am more motivated than ever to get under 200 by the new year!I have 10 more lbs to lose to get there! (I had gained some before I started this program!) But I will get there, and that's all that matters!