So, I've made my decision...

So, I keep getting the feeling that going to a dietitian is going to be my best course of action. I can't tell you exactly why. But, I want something a little more personally catered to me than anything I have found previously. I really feel that I will be able to stick with it. I've got the number of a local clinic here where I live, so I will call and see how much an appointment is, and will start from there.
On another note, I got talking with the gal that lives on the opposite corner from where we are, and she was talking about wanting to work out more, so I suggested we become walking buddies! She has similar goals to me, and we both have a long journey ahead of us! I really hope she takes me up on it!

Why can't I?

Ok, this picture is a man named James, who lost 313 lbs in a year's time. THAT IS PHENOMENAL! He did have a lot of help in the beginning with his fitness guru living with him for the first 3 months of this year to teach him everything he needed to do. But he also lost 90 lbs on his own after that, and that's a lot of weight in a 3 month period. If he can do that, why can't I lose 50 lbs in a year? Granted, I'm not 651 lbs to start, with that much weight to lose, but I don't think my goal is unrealistic. 1 lb a week is a very healthy pace to be losing weight. I'm not expecting instant results. I want them to be slow and steady so that I know I'm losing it the right way. Plus, I don't want the saggy skin thing that can go along with drastic weight loss, so if it comes off more slowly, I don't get that quite so much.
So, I've figured out what my main struggle is. I need a food game plan. I have these things that I roughly follow, (Weight Watchers, and a diet plan I got from a friend) but that doesn't seem to be enough for me. I'm considering setting up an appointment with a dietician a time or two to see what would be best suited for me. I want this to happen for me, so I need to learn what is best for me. That's the one thing about weight loss. We all need slightly different things. Yes, we all need a healthy diet and to exercise to lose weight, but our bodies adapt to different things. Am I crazy to be considering this?

Portion Control

Ok, so now that my hubby is working the graveyard shift, I am usually making dinner for 1, instead of 2. Having that chance is a double edged sword for me though. Some of the things I make at home, I don't know how to make it smaller than 2 portions, especially anything to do with pasta.
It is also more tempting to go out and grab something to eat, because it is just for me. I think about the dirty dishes that it would cause, and usually end up going out. This is obviously not the choice I want to truly be making, or I wouldn't be talking about it.
So, I need to get more motivation to be completely in control of what I am eating. Why is this such a struggle for me? I haven't been able to place why yet. Sadly, I think it is mostly coming down to 3 things.
1. I can get lazy. After working a long day, I just don't want to think about having to do one more thing, and when I don't have to, I usually wont on those days.
2. I'm scared that people will treat me different when I am skinnier. In a way, I want people to treat me different, but in the same instance, I don't want them to treat me different. I feel people give me quite a bit of respect now, and I fear losing that. I know this is stupid, but I think that is part of the reason why I just go out. I know it's not very good for me, so I am sabotaging my own mission of health and fitness.
3. It seems like they are always changing what your portion control should be/look like anymore! It starts to become a daunting task!
Well, I have found the most current answer!
50% of your plate should have your veggies. (Have fruit in a small bowl off to the side)
20% of your plate should have your grain/starch
30% of your plate should have your protein
So there you have it! I am going to work this week on cooking at home, and having the correct portion sizes on my plate. What are you going to work on?

I need to get a grip...

...on my eating habits. I was following a fabulous program for a while, and was seeing results, but since my surgery, and even a little before, i haven't been following anything at all. I need to tighten up the reins on it. I've been dabbling in what I can and can't handle since my gall bladder surgery. The only thing I've been able to really pinpoint is alfredo sauce, which is one of my favorite things to put on pasta. It's healthier for me that it isn't an option for me anymore, but it bums me out, and I have to find something else to put on pasta. I haven't found a red sauce that I like yet. They are always too chunky for me. My mom made one growing up that I like ok, but I'm usually trying to do 6 other things while I'm cooking, so throwing in making the sauce is harder for me. I might just have to make a huge batch and bottle it or something! ;)
So, if anyone has any ideas on how to help me tighten the reins on my eating habits, that would be super helpful! In the mean time, I think I will start following the most recent plan that has been working for me thanks to my friend Jeanna.

25 lbs down!

So, I have to tell you something. I am down 25 lbs down! I truly wish I had a picture of me at my peak weight, because I would love to do a side by side reveal, but alas, I cannot. I cannot express how excited I am that this journey is continuing the way it is! 2 years ago, I weighed 235 lbs.
When I started blogging, I was around 220, (even though in my picture I said I was 216, I gained 4 lbs back within the week. So I say I started at 220) So since I started the blog, I have lost 10 lbs, and I know that's a long time to wait for that weight loss, but I can guarantee, that it won't come back on me! I want to lose it the right way, and that means that it isn't going to come off speedily.
People in my life keep asking me what's different about me. I think it's mostly because I am confident, and I feel good about how my body feels now. Plus, my face is starting to thin out again, and that always makes me happy! ;)

101 POSTS!

I totally missed that yesterday's post was my 100th post! I can't believe I have been keeping up with this blog as well as I have. (My personal one with my husband hasn't hit 100 posts and I have had it much longer!) So, I thought I would share a recent picture. I have a long way to go before I reach my goal, but I am slowly getting there!
So, last night I watched an episode of Supersize vs. Superskinny. It was a very different show! It takes someone who doesn't eat enough, and someone who eats way to much, and they swap their diets for a week. Then they are put on their doctor recommended diet for 12 weeks to see how they did. It's an interesting concept. The overweight guy did really well and didn't cheat on his at all. But the girl couldn't eat everything in front of her. She couldn't relinquish her control of her food. I know what that is like to an extent. I am no where near as extreme, but I am a calorie counter, and I feel that if I go over what I think I should be eating, I get upset, and I binge. I don't purge anymore, but it hinders my weight loss journey. I'm getting better at not bingeing though.
Every day is a new day, and today is a good day so far! I will do my best to keep it that way!

What should I Weigh?

So, I was looking into what people think I should weight to be classified as "Healthy" and I was dumbfounded. They say I should weigh between 128-134 to be healthy. To be completely honest with you, that is heavier than I thought it would be. It seems that the last time I was told, I was supposed to be between 118-121. Personally, I think their choice is too thin for me.
Looking back on my life, I was happiest when I was around the 145 range. A lot of people think that is too fat, but I was really confident in myself at that weight. My stopping point on my weight calculator at the top of my blog is currently set to stop at 160, because that is where my doctor wants me to be before my hubby and I go full force into trying for a baby. The ultimate goal is to get back around 145, and be able to stay there for the majority of my life. Yes, I know I will gain weight back when I get pregnant, but I want to make my body as healthy as I can before trying for that sweet baby.
So, here's to a week with some weight loss! I weighed this morning, and I didn't gain over my lazy eating weekend, so that is something. I know I need to be better, and I will be, starting today! ;)